I took a hiatus and I don’t know how I feel about it. I gained like 10 pounds since I last wrote and I am not feeling so hot about it. I decided to go back to yoga tonight because i just needed a change. I also joined a new gym which is much more motivating than the YMCA was. All of these good things are happening in my life and i just can’t seem to stop eating food (mostly food that is bad for me).
Therefore, I have decided to take my iPad to work which will help me stay on track much more. I’ll be able to see the whole ww app and be able to post on tumblr.
My motivation this time is my health and the tahari jacket I bought.
Here goes nothin!
My motivation to lose weight and go to yoga is at an all time low. But it’s always on my mind. I am confused and worried that I will never lose this weight and that is sending me into a serious funk. I know that WW is a good thing, but sometimes it can be absolutely exhausting. That being said, I purchased the master cleanse book from amazon and am going to give it a try. I need to do something to jumpstart my motivation again and I am thinking that this is it. Hopefully, it will work.
I also think that my life is just too hectic and sometimes I feel like I am being pulled into 100 different places and ways and its all just too too much. I am hoping to get some clarity through the yoga practice, but last night’s class was such an epic fail. There had to be 30-40 people in that room and it had to have reached at least 115 degrees. When I got home I felt like dying and I was definitely dehydrated.
Then dave, nick, and I went out to Egans and I definitely over indulged. I have to stop doing that. Its this mentality that once I get off track, then I just keep going off track. OR when I go out and eat something that I have not prepared and calculated, I completely lose it and give up. I don’t know what to do anymore, but I know that I am really sick of living in this body. Something has got to give, I just don’t know what!
lots of love,
However, I did go to yoga tonight. And I ate well. And I am not going to blow it. What!
This is no shocker to me, considering I ate like crap this weekend and did not go to yoga as planned. So this means that I have one week to lose 10 pounds. I am certainly going to do my best, but I doubt I will get there. Now, does that mean that I should not give myself the prize once I get to the goal of 170 because I didn’t do it in the time allotment? Or should, I give it to myself because I got the goal, just perhaps, maybe not on time.
I guess I will figure it out. The best thing I am trying to do for myself currently is to not eat past 8 and try to eat the most whole foods that I possibly can. This means a lot of whole foods, organic foods, and ones that I pick up from the local farmers market. So far, today, this is going well. Everything that I have in my lunch bag was either made from scratch by moi or purchased in its whole form. Which I guess is pretty cool!
I am going to do the best I can to follow up everyday and to continue to yoga it out and track my food. I set up these awesome reminders on my phone from WW mobile that ask me if I have tracked yet for the day or not. I have them set up so that they come on 4 times a day. I guess that’s technically making a move?
I’ll blog it all to you tomorrow about how it went today.
too lame? whatever! I’m back ya’ll!
I had a good run for a while when I was working out there and then I stopped blogging because life got in the way. And that’s how it always goes. Life gets in my way. And then I stop working hard for myself and work hard for everyone else.
Well, I just have to change that mentality because it will for certain kill me. I was recently on SlimQuick for my second run and it simply made me feel gross. I’m worried now that I have done irreparable damage to myself because of all of the stupid chemicals I have put into my body, etc. I think something is going on with my lower intestine; either that OR I just strained something hardcore in yoga. Speaking of, yesterday was the first time I have ever been able to do wheel pose! http://www.yogajournal.com/poses/473 and I was almost able to do crow! http://www.yogajournal.com/poses/468
Either way, I have got to make a change (again). man am I starting to feel like a broken record. I have joined a hot yoga studio and I LOVE IT. I have started to read the yoga sutras to find out more about the practice and I am actually amazed at what it has done for me mentally. I am much more relaxed than I have been in the past and I really do give it all up to yoga, especially hot yoga. I love it so much that I am going to be practicing Karma Yoga which allows me to volunteer my time at the studio and help people become involved and comfortable in the space. I am going to receive free yoga for the duration of my time, but that’s not really why I wanted to do it. I really wanted to commit to it, so I am doing it.
I think that in the future I would even be interested in becoming a teacher. There is something about being able to master the poses and then teach them to someone else that makes me really happy. Along with that, I am going to be doing the master cleanse for two weeks. I have to get all of this gunk out of my body and start fresh. So, I am going to WW it up over the next couple days, then do the master cleanse on Monday and then start WW up again and only eat clean, whole foods (to the best of my abililty)
This is exactly the reason why I love the summertime. I can now be a little more flexible with my time, money, and diet.
That being said, I have figured out a reward system for myself to get myself into yoga more and more while also wanting to maintain losing weight.
170 by August 01 = Spiritual Gangster Salute the Sun tank http://spiritualgangster.com/api/Index.cfm/products.details/i/5769
165 by August 15 = manicure/pedicure
160 by September 01 = new dress for first day of school/matching heels
155 by October 01 = new purse
150 by November 01 = new workout clothing
145 by December 01 = getting into orange shorts for Forever 21
140 by January 01 = new hair color/track jacket from LuluLemon
135 by February 01 = bikini for Miami
130 by March 01 = new wardrobe/throw out old clothing
125 by April 01 = tattoo
hope this works! I know it will!
Down: 1 lb
I have come to the realization that my schedule is too crazy and that sometimes i just wont be able to make it to the gym, but that i always need to eat right.
i DID however get to go to the gym today and it was glorious. i am going to be running tomorrow which is super exciting and then off to a bridal dress weekend! i am going to see Amanda’s (so excited) and then going to look for Skye’s (super exciting)!
i cant wait for all of these wonderful things to happen for my friends. and i cant wait for the summer when i wont be super exhausted.
I also don’t feel like i lost that one pound, but we shall see what the scale says tomorrow.
Weight 173.2 Up: 1
I really need to start to either sleep better or more cause this is killing me. And my weight loss process. On a happier note had angel food cake flavor tonight at the lite choice and it was exactly what I needed.
Now I’m off to bed to catch some z’s. There will be a big mama post this weekend.
Down: 1.4 (I think. I’m bad at math)
I just got home a little while ago from a very exhausting, but productive day. I went to both of my jobs today and once I was out I went to visit with Amanda’s mom to discuss some bridal shower related details. It was good and so necessary, but now I am hyped up and exhausted all at the same time.
I decided on the drive home that I was going to lose even more weight for Amanda’s Bridal Shower and if I did then I would reward myself with a great new dress. I am definitely going to stick to this since I want to look awesome for this momentous occasion in my best friend’s life.
I am going to head to bed, catch some z’s and then wake up tomorrow morning for a sweet session of athletic conditioning.
adios loves and losers
First picture: me at my heaviest I think ever. (im on the bottom right)
Second picture: me now. I’ve come a long way, but I am no where near done (im in the middle)
Down (technically): 1 lb
Yesterday Dave and I had a wonderful time walking around Chelsea Market. We indulged in many many things which you will see on our sweets blog, and I actually lost weight. I suppose I overindulged A LOT at Skye’s engagement party or maybe it was a whole bunch of stuff: overeating, stress, etc, but i gained 1.6 and then couldn’t blog about it because I was so busy yesterday!
Today was a great day. I packed a great day of food and was planning on going to Athletic Conditioning at the gym. And then at 11:00 I got an allergic reaction to something. Well, I learned that I am allergic to my vitamins which is both bad and good. It was such a bad reaction that I had to take benadryl again and was sent home so that I could get some rest.
I don’t think I am going to go to the gym tonight unless I stop feeling so drowsy, but I doubt it. I guess these are the things that we can’t really plan for, so that’ okay. Before I started this new journey I would have thrown my hands up and said “F it! Now I’m just going to eat what I want!” But instead, this time, I am eating a light string cheese, some cucumber, and cherries and going to watch a movie. If I am feeling munchy later, I have food written down that I didn’t get the chance to eat yet today, so I am all good.
I have to remember that I can’t beat myself up when I mess up or if life gets in the way. I think all of these allergic reactions have been the way for some higher power to tell me to slow it down a little. So that’s exactly what I am going to do!
Weight: 173.4 Down: .6
Today was Skye’s engagement party and it was really a great time. I might have overeaten some but we will see what the scale says tomorrow morning. I worked out and enjoyed myself today and that’s really what matters.
I’m super tired. No time to be witty.